Another Monday Morning

April 4, 2011
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Another Monday morning, get up, get ready, get on the bus, get off the bus, get on the subway, get off the subway, get coffee, get in the office.

Feels a bit mundane, same routine every Monday – Friday.  I can’t help but feel that I should be doing something else.  I would rather be much at home taking care of the kids, watch them grow.  Watch them discover new things every day.  The joy that I see in their face when they figure something out.  It’s that joy I see that makes me feel that my wife and I have done something right.  It bothers me when other people tells us how to raise our kids.  I guess it’s because they’ve been through it and they know what to expect.  I can respect that, but I feel that I would rather let them learn on their own.  Learning on their own has a much greater impact that us telling them no.  The curiosity would only drive them to do it anyway.

OK, that was a long tangental thought.

What I was trying to get is, there has to be more to this.  What is it that I’m searching for?  Why am I afraid to reach out and get what I want?  Why do I hold back all the time?  I wish I knew the answers to all this.  Somewhere, its locked deep inside, just don’t know how to get there.

Hopefully I’ll figure this out sooner than later.

I know there’s something  greater out there for us, I just need to break through and get it.  But how?

WordPress for Blackberry

March 31, 2011
Mobile Tech

Installed it on my work BB. Sometimes it’s just easier on a real keyboard. The virtual one on my Samsung Vibrant can be a real challenge at times.

ho hum

March 29, 2011
lifepersonalspritual

Lots of thoughts been racing through my mind lately.  Kids growing up so fast, work is more demanding, anniversary coming up, and here am, feeling almost lost.  I feel like things are going well, but at the same time I feel like things are not going well.  I’m almost afraid to work too hard for fear that everything may fall apart, but at the same time if I don’t work hard for everything I’ll never know what may have been.

I find myself always holding back, afraid to take that extra step to push myself forward.  I’m not exactly sure why, or maybe I do know and I’m just denying myself the truth.  Whatever it may be I need to break free of that strangle hold.  I feel that indecisiveness is holding everything back. If I never break free I’ll never know my true potential and I will have failed everyone that I hold close to me.

What is it that I have to do to break free?  Why am I scared?  Do I have anything to lose?

I better get over this sooner than later…

Happy times ahead

March 17, 2011
family

Things are starting to look up in every aspect of my life, work, marriage, family, finanves, etc. Can’t help but feel that things will be much better.  I can feel a really bright future ahead for al of us.  Just need to block out all the negative energy that tends to surround us.

The biggest key is to keep the lines of communications open.

Full steam ahead! We got this!

Scribefire

March 9, 2011
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Just installed ScribFire for Chrome.  So far the interface looks prerry slick.  Looks like an WYSIWG HTML editor.  So should be easy to links, elements, pictures, etc.

we’ll see how it goes.

Portrait of Liam Sleeping

February 26, 2011
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Portrait of Liam SleepingPortrait of Liam while he recovering from his fever. The edits were done with Camera Raw in Photoshop CS5. Not much done here, gave the picture a softer feel to it and lowered the saturation on all colors.

I think it gives it that portrait look you see in those art gallery stores you see in the malls.

Roslyn with the Red Angry Bird

February 25, 2011
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Roslyn with the Red Angry BirdHere’s a picture of my daughter taken with the red bird from Angry Birds. Photo was edited in Photoshop CS5. Thought it was cute picture, but it needed a little more to it.

nice day

February 22, 2011
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well… i started today with a good and positive attitude for work, but as usual, that gets thrown back in my face. It just keeps getting harder and harder to stay positive everyday.

Liam is getting better

February 15, 2011
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I meant to write this last night but I was too tired.

Got home early from work to help take of a Liam and to go the doctor’s office. Luckily, his slowly rising temperature from early in the morning subsided. By the time we got to the doctor’s office he seemed to be doing fine. Official temperature from the doctor was…. hmm.. i can’t remember, but he did say it was normal.

One thing I noticed is that when we put Liam down, or just about to put him down on to the exam bed/table, he starts crying. I think he now knows when he’s in a hospital or doctor’s office. He’s definitely afraid of people in green scrubs.

Anyway, Liam checked out ok. His doctor gave us 3 days worth of antibiotics, azithrmomycin. The only thing we need to watch out rashes on his head accompanied by a high fever.

Liam still seems a bit tired, but that is due to the antibiotics and his body fighting off an infection. Otherwise he’s slowly returning to normal.

We’re both glad that Liam is doing better. It was such a tough and trying weekend. Thank goodness we got through it. And for what it’s worth, i think we all came out stronger.

Liam’s still not doing well

February 14, 2011
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Well, just to recap from Saturday, Liam never pee’d. The doctor however ruled out an urea infection because he was circumcised, so the possibility of an infection through there is really low. We just had to return to the ER for a follow up antibiotic shot, so e went home, and Liam was his normal self through the rest of the day.

Sunday he was normal as well, but by 3pm his temp started to get rise again. We got to the hospital by 4pm for his follow up appointment and shot. His official recorded temp was 103F. The nurses gave him another dose of tylenol and that seemed to calm him down a bit. The doctor came in with 30 minutes of arriving and said that the blood cultures came up empty, but wanted to give it another 24 hours to see if there’s anything else. Another hour passed by and they nurse gave Liam another shot of rocephin. This time Liam was sleeping, but let out a loud cry when he got the shot. About 5 minutes later he was fine and was sleeping on my shoulder again.

As a follow up we’re supposed to go to his pediatrician and he should be able to take it from there.

This morning Liam had the chills again….

we’re to be bringing him to his pediatrician today, hopefully we can get a better handle on what is going on with him.

It is so hard to see your child in so much pain and discomfort. What hurts more, is that we can’t do much about it. All that we can do is try to comfort him. I wish I could do more, I wish I could take the pain away. I wish it was me who would get sick and not him. I hope he gets better soon.

I love you Liam.

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