Another Monday morning, get up, get ready, get on the bus, get off the bus, get on the subway, get off the subway, get coffee, get in the office.
Feels a bit mundane, same routine every Monday – Friday. I can’t help but feel that I should be doing something else. I would rather be much at home taking care of the kids, watch them grow. Watch them discover new things every day. The joy that I see in their face when they figure something out. It’s that joy I see that makes me feel that my wife and I have done something right. It bothers me when other people tells us how to raise our kids. I guess it’s because they’ve been through it and they know what to expect. I can respect that, but I feel that I would rather let them learn on their own. Learning on their own has a much greater impact that us telling them no. The curiosity would only drive them to do it anyway.
OK, that was a long tangental thought.
What I was trying to get is, there has to be more to this. What is it that I’m searching for? Why am I afraid to reach out and get what I want? Why do I hold back all the time? I wish I knew the answers to all this. Somewhere, its locked deep inside, just don’t know how to get there.
Hopefully I’ll figure this out sooner than later.
I know there’s something greater out there for us, I just need to break through and get it. But how?