Roslyn’s Sick
Well, she had a high temperature of 104.5 at 1am today. Rather than give her Motrin to bring her temperature down we brought her to the ER to determine what’s going on. I felt like we couldn’t wait until Monday to see what was going on with her.
First Dr that saw her was thinking it might be a UTI because she has a fever that has no explanation. We tried to give her some water and apple juice but she wouldn’t take any.
Around 7am, another Dr came in and decided to give her an IV and to draw some blood. It was sonpainful to watch Roslyn go through that type of pain. What hurt me more was that there was nothing neither Linette nor I could do.
It’s 7:07am now, and we’ve been here since 1:30.
I’ll update later once we here something back.
depression?
i think i’m going into depression.
I need to change
I feel like I’m slowly destroying everything I hold dear to me.
Another Monday Morning
Another Monday morning, get up, get ready, get on the bus, get off the bus, get on the subway, get off the subway, get coffee, get in the office.
Feels a bit mundane, same routine every Monday – Friday. I can’t help but feel that I should be doing something else. I would rather be much at home taking care of the kids, watch them grow. Watch them discover new things every day. The joy that I see in their face when they figure something out. It’s that joy I see that makes me feel that my wife and I have done something right. It bothers me when other people tells us how to raise our kids. I guess it’s because they’ve been through it and they know what to expect. I can respect that, but I feel that I would rather let them learn on their own. Learning on their own has a much greater impact that us telling them no. The curiosity would only drive them to do it anyway.
OK, that was a long tangental thought.
What I was trying to get is, there has to be more to this. What is it that I’m searching for? Why am I afraid to reach out and get what I want? Why do I hold back all the time? I wish I knew the answers to all this. Somewhere, its locked deep inside, just don’t know how to get there.
Hopefully I’ll figure this out sooner than later.
I know there’s something greater out there for us, I just need to break through and get it. But how?
