Month: November 2009

Another day

Another beautiful autumn day here in NJ. Sun is shining, there’s a nice brisk feeling in the air. Yet I feel disconnected from everything around me.

The only thing that put a smile on my face was seeing Liam and Roslyn sleeping peacefully.

A am so at odds with myself. What do I do? I’m trying the best I can do raise my family but I just keep getting knocked down. If this is a test, God has a sick swnse of humour.
“I don’t want start any blasphemous rumors, because I think that God’s got a sick sense of humour. And when I die I expect for him to be laughing…”

We’ll see what happens today.

I think I need another session with my shamanic energy healer. Because I definitely don’t feel like I’m me. If that make sense.


Bad things

I deserve every bad thing that happens to me.

I must’ve did something horrible to someone. I guess I’m sleeping in the car tonight


another night

2 more days before my Mom flies into town to help out Linette and myself. Its been quite rough with all the diaper changes, feedings, explosive poop, luckily haven’t gotten the golden shower, although it’s been really close.

Life has definitely changed since Liam and Roslyn have been born, other than the fact that i get no sleep, I actually find myself leaving work on time just to see their cute faces. It’s quite uncanny that Liam looks nearly like me at his age. I’ll post it up sometime.
It’s about 3:17am EDT and my alarm goes off at 4am. Maybe i should set it back to 5:30 and see if i can get some rest, but then again, that plan didn’t work at all yesterday as I was 3 hours late for work. Right now, i’ll be up for 48 hours with no real sleep. I wonder what kind of toll that will take on me…. only time will tell. All this so my wife can get some rest.
I know it sounds nuts, but… yeah, I am nuts, but I do love her that much and then some, even though i may not show it all the time… which leads to another subject, but that is for a different evening.


Bad. Morning

What a bad star to a beautiful morning. I decided to be good husband and father last night so my wife could get some well deserved rest. Turns out that at about 3am I decided to take a power nap, for at least 15 minutes. That 15 minutes turned into a 5 hour long nap. In case you’re wondering I’m supposed to be at work at 7am.

Its going to be a long and trying day.


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