Another beautiful autumn day here in NJ. Sun is shining, there’s a nice brisk feeling in the air. Yet I feel disconnected from everything around me.

The only thing that put a smile on my face was seeing Liam and Roslyn sleeping peacefully.

A am so at odds with myself. What do I do? I’m trying the best I can do raise my family but I just keep getting knocked down. If this is a test, God has a sick swnse of humour.
“I don’t want start any blasphemous rumors, because I think that God’s got a sick sense of humour. And when I die I expect for him to be laughing…”

We’ll see what happens today.

I think I need another session with my shamanic energy healer. Because I definitely don’t feel like I’m me. If that make sense.